Take 3

Do you remember that moment as a child,
On a playground alive with the voices of innocence,
When you were on the swings,
And made the decision for the first time;
FUCK IT;
At the highest point of your ascent you let go of the chains,
And for the slightest of moments you were in flight?
Do you remember that moment?
How in one instant colours became more vivid,
Sounds more complex,
Your hearts soaring as for just a second you feel as if you can catch a bird by the tail
And it seemed, if only for that moment,
That the universe and you were in perfect alignment,
Until that moment,
Almost imperceptible,
That Newton’s forces of Gravity,
Took hold of you just as they had that apple,
Do you remember it? Try!

Are you willing to explore the depths of yourself,
With the same wonder and awe that you do the universe,
Peaking deep within at the complexities of your soul,
Revealing an illumination,
Each star a light post on your cosmic journey?
If so, let’s pretend!

If you will, can you remember the moment as an adolescent?
Perhaps earlier or later,
When you looked across the classroom,
At that boy or girl that stole your heart,
The butterflies in your stomach fluttering,
With the intensity of an earthquake,
The world around you shaking likes buildings,
Your heart pounding,
Like heavy artillery on Berlin,
A love so intense that you felt like pulling your hair out,
One strand at a time – Do you remember?
Every waking moment of your life consumed,
Whether deep in sleep,
Where to dream was to love,
Or awake,
When the day revealed a waking dream,
Unsure of whether up was down or down was up!

Do you remember the sting?
The biting hurt that penetrated you so deeply,
When that first love was either gloriously answered or unrequited,
And it felt as if the air was being stolen from your lungs,
As if you could not breathe,
As if life was over,
And that you were destined to be alone,
That the world was unfair and how could this be,
It had to be a mistake or some kind of trick,
Tears dropping like bombs –
Can you feel it?

Then as fast as you fell in love that first time,
And had it taken away,
The universe again reveals the complexities of your soul,
Like rainfall in the summer,
The sweet smell of the grass permeating you,
Even as you walk the sidewalks of a concrete jungle,
Your mind can only consider the sweet surrender,
Like it had during that moment on the swing,
And you find love again,
Realizing that there is no beginning, middle and end,
Only the journey,
And all the ups and downs,
Twisting and turning,
Joy and pain,
Ying and yang,
In that moment no longer like an athlete running a sprint,
But instead like a snowflake drifting to the ground,
In that realization can you jump,
Like a child,
Throwing caution to the wind,
Failing to be afraid
And instead,
Being willing to really be –
ALIVE!

SDM