Truth

Good Afternoon my Loyal Readers...

It is a sunny Toronto afternoon, bitterly cold as befits this wintery day. It is trying to snow but so far to no avail though the areas to the North have been pounded so can it really be that far off.

I've realized something about myself in the past few weeks. It is a difficult reckoning but one that I came to through self searching and honesty. I have been a bad person for the last year or so. Sure outwardly I have appeared moderately the same (a mask) but inside I was seething. I knew that I was not doing what I should be doing and as a result it was spilling over into every aspect of my life.

I have been reading much in the past few weeks. Spending time with myself and looking inward. I have finally found a career (not a job) which I have known I would get involved in for a very long time and am taking the steps necessary to ensure that I have continued success. This realization has filled me once again with boundless energy and enthusiasm and I have a true smile on my face and in my soul. It is radiating to everyone that knows me and indeed the world at large.

For all of you that have been around me during this difficult time I apologize for my ugliness. For my lack of purpose. For my lack of self worth which manifested itself in very ugly ways. However, I assure you those days are long gone. I have picked myself up (with the help of those closest to me) and I am ready to take on any challenge which comes my way with the same grace and beauty that I do my new life in the Kitchen! Yes Chef!

I can only say thank you to those of you who gave me a push in the direction that I am going. Both in terms of my career and my own personal development. I now wake up every day and say to myself; "How can I became a better man, a better human!" And I seek that answer by living a truthful and honest life.

Stay tuned as the next few years (and the rest of my life) are going to be a wild ride of continued personal growth, professional success and ultimately a lifetime of happiness. I remember one time my shrink told me a story about a Nordic tribe which I will now share with you.

This tribe lives its lives just like us. Save not in cities or with the same speed that we North Americans do. They have two jars in their homes which they fill with stones their entire lives. White ones representing good memories and black ones (volcanic rock) representing bad ones. They live their lives with the fervent desire to have just one more white than black. That is the definition of a successful life for them.

Well for me, for the first time in my life, I have one more white than black. I can see the light at the beginning of the tunnel and will continue to add white and black with the hope that at the end I can say to my family, friends and the world at large that I have lead a successful life. And that I have way more white than black. It truly is an attitude adjustment that cn only come with searching inwardly.

I hope you all have an inspired day!

SDM